Our Wedding Day!

Today is the big day! It's about 7:30 am and I woke up feeling like I did yesterday but I can't say its a hangover this time. I'll admit it now....I'm nervous. I'm not nervous about the actual getting married part I'm nervous about forgetting something big or something going completely wrong. I know I can't plan every little detail and so I'll have to deal with whatever may happen today but I can't stop feeling a little nervous.

I am very excited for our ceremony and as I think about it I can't help but cry. If you know me well enough you know I cry very easily for both good and sad reasons. I look back and I think about what life was like before I met Zac and all I remember is feeling like something was missing. I wouldn't let myself get depressed over being single but I knew deep down all I wanted was that special someone that would be my bestfriend for life. When I met Zac everything was different than anything I had ever felt before. I wanted to know more about him. I wanted him to be my friend. Luckily for me Zac gained the courage to ask me out. I remember dating him and getting scared. This was all so new to me and pouring our hearts out to each other was probably the hardest thing we ever did. As we learned more about each other and became incredibly serious about one another we had our ups and downs. On my part I knew I was very insecure. I think the first two years of our relationship was a lot of breaking down the walls to let him in and to let myself know that he truly loved me. There were many crying fests and talking fests and in the end it helped.

Sometimes I think about us getting old and I start to cry because I can't imagine that future without him. I realize that I am a very lucky woman to have found someone that is so good, kind, loving, smart and absolutely amazing.

I love Zac more than anyone or anything in this life. He is the man that takes care of me when I get sick. He worries about me more than I worry about myself sometimes. He knows how to make me smile and he knows how to push my buttons...on purpose! I love how he tries to go after every animal that he sees and tries to become an expert on that animal. I love how he pretends to be the dog whisperer, even though I get annoyed at the same time. I love how he lights up when he gets excited about something and how he gets so passionate about certain topics. I even love when he gets moody when he hasn't eaten and he starts going on a rampage. He is the most intelligent and handsome man aside from Barack Obama(jk). I just love Zac.