setting small goals

This week has been a week of getting stuff done! This means doing research on new doctors and calling a bunch of people.

I think I've mentioned before how much I hate calling people! I hate it!

Yesterday or this morning...I can't remember anymore...my coworker told me she thought I was talking to myself when I was on the phone. I rarely talk on the phone. Email is my preferred way to do business. I also hate, hate, hate making personal calls while at my desk. I can hear everyone else when they have personal calls and I eavesdrop....I don't want nosy people listening to my conversations.

So I've been so proud of myself for making phone calls this week. One was to the dentist. Those evil evil people tried to bill me $600. They didn't have my new insurance card. Taken care of!

Today I called Walgreens to get my prescription filled earlier than the autofill date. I was expecting this whole ordeal but it was super easy and fast.

I called my mommykins. She's the easiest to call because I call her once or twice a week. I had to ask her about camping. For my 30th I decided I wanted to go on a family camping trip. The weekend of the 23rd we'll head to Madera Canyon. My parents have been so excited and my mom invited my aunt and uncle along. They had asked what my mom was planning to do for her 60th birthday which is on the 26th. On Sunday, when I called my mom she told me that my aunt would bring my grandmother too and would probably stay in a cabin. I got the impression from that phone call that my mom wanted to stay in cabin now too. I have to admit I was pretty bummed my plans were changed so today I decided to call my mom again and figure out what exactly my parents would be doing that weekend. Turns out my parents are fine with staying in tents but my mom is happy that there are cabins nearby for the other family members.

I also called my brother....ugh...this was the hard one. My brother and I have grown apart over the years and I've been trying to make the effort to call him every once and a while. I had emailed him about a family event and the response from the emails have been somewhat hard to figure out. Being a girl, I over analyze everything and then I feel like I said something wrong and I offended him and now he hates me. So for the past couple weeks I've had this nagging feeling. Today while starting to write that last blog I took my own advice and I called my brother. It wasn't that bad! We talked for a little bit but I hung up the phone feeling a lot better.

Communication is always the key but damn that phone!

let me tell you....

It seems like lately I've been hearing quite a few people talk about life changing plans, ideas, goals and/or dreams. Maybe it's because of Facebook(I always blame FB) that more people are discussing issues that would normally be kept private or that this is just the new way to reach out to people. In one way it's good because I believe everyone should express themselves but it's kind of bad too because everyone becomes a therapist/psychologist. I'm just as guilty as the next person. You tell me about family/friend drama, work gossip or celebrity news and I'll tell you how I feel and what that person needs to do. It's always so crystal clear from the outside. From the outside you take out the emotion and what you are left with are statements. When the statements are put together it's obvious what the answer is to the eventual question (the question that more than likely we haven't been asked).

But then when we look at our own lives and try to figure out what is going on or how to get things back on track and all of a sudden things aren't clear anymore. It's almost like we become blind when it comes to our own lives. We either just don't see it, we make excuses, or we accept it and do nothing about it. If we are honest with ourselves we acknowledge whatever "it" is and we try to do something about it. Everything is so much harder and scarier when we have to do it on our own.

With a big birthday coming up soon I keep thinking about what I'd like to see happen within this next decade. Is it time to start a family? I'm not sure yet. Is it time to go back to school for a master's degree? Maybe.

What I do know is that every once in a while you have to do a self evaluation and figure out where you are at and where you want to be. Whether it be married with kids within the next couple years, buying a house in two weeks, or leaving a bad relationship it's all about what you want and need. So here is a list of what I like to live by and every now and then I have to remind myself about not being afraid.

1. Do what makes you happy.
2. Don't be afraid.
3. Get rid of toxic people.
4. Learn to stand up for yourself.
5. Live your life.